Sunday, August 11, 2013

3 Years and No More Counting



June 10th was the 3rd anniversary of my freedom. And, I've never felt better.
 
I graduated with honors from the Social Service Worker program in May of this year.  Since then, I packed up our house and moved us 1800kms to a new home - a new start, a new job, a new life.
 
I have officially left the past behind, physically and mentally.
 
I am stronger. Day by day I am getting my voice back. Day by day I am regaining my confidence. I had no idea just how depleted my confidence was until I moved here and started looking for, and going to interviews for jobs. I realized that I still have a low self esteem from the years of being called down to the dirt. But, I am working on it and becoming stronger every day.
 
I watched a sermon from Pastor Craig Groechsel yesterday and it began a life changing mind renewal for me. It is about feelings of inadequacy. I watched it twice and cried both times. It is a sermon that I want to watch every single day until I completely believe it.
 
You can find the sermon at http://www.lifechurch.tv/watch/altar-ego/1. It is absolutely worth watching.
 
Getting out of an abusive relationship, finding healing for self and children and moving on to a new life is a lot of work. It has taken me until this very moment to be able to say, it was a courageous move and I am a strong woman.
 
I will not count any more years since leaving. Starting this month, I have began to count the years that I have started this new life with my children. For the first time ever, I can actually say that I am proud of myself.

9 comments:

Nicole Thomas said...

what a strong woman you are :) I am very greatful to have met you and wish you all the best on your new adventures !!! :)

Anonymous said...

Thank you Nicole! I feel honoured to have met you as well! <3

Paula

Maureen said...

Wishing you every success in your new life! You've conquered much! Carry on! Love ya!

Anonymous said...

Thanks :) Love you, M!

PJ

Patty said...

You're doing great, you are an inspiration to many women and a great role model for the next generation. Although the burden may be a heavy one you keep moving forward. So glad to have met you

T Charles said...

You're a strong woman!

Spin said...

Thanks, Patty and T!

Anonymous said...

My name is Cierra and I would just like to say that I think it is wonderful that you have overcome a violent relationship. My mom is in a violent relationship, and I wish that she had your courage. I think that she believes that she can not live without a man in her life, but this man is not right for her. I think that it is really incredible that you have decided to start counting the years that your new life has started instead of the years that your old life ended. I hope that you find happiness in whatever you do, and I hope that you never have to deal with domestic violence again. Women need a more positive outlook on life, if they are going to move forward. Women like you give the rest of us strength. Keep on Keeping on :) and never give up!

Spin said...

Cierra,

How very nice of you to leave such an encouraging comment. I, like your mom, had believes that I needed to get past in order to move on into my new life, by getting out of the one that was only bringing me down. I can only imagine how hard it must be to watch your mom in that kind of relationship. I wish strength and clearness of mind to both of you.

Thank you for stopping by my blog and being such an encouragement.